Oh Goodness

I haven't been on here in ages
i'm in portland now, have been since last june
kenji is still amazing
and portland has its ups and downs
like any part of life

gotta go smoke now
and if anyone sees jdodd, tell him to fucking call me already

well then

i have 34 days left.
Three
Four

and to be honest i couldn't possibly be any happier. this whole seattle thing is going to be over, and i'm glad it is.
i got my acceptance letter for Portland State. and i applied for housing. wishing i could live not on campus, but i know that isn't to be, at least for this year. i have learned what it truly means to HATE someone, which is sad, considering i live in the same room with them.

i've realized that up here, i am truly, and utterly lonely. i have friends, but i miss the one person who won't return my calls. but oh well. thats life.

i've also realized that although i could plan the rest of my life around kenji, i'm not going to. of course, that doesn't mean it won't end up that way. but i'm young, and i'm having so much fun. with him. with my family. with life.

at least while i'm in seattle, i don't face reality. i have a feeling that going home is either going to be a slap in the face, or a warm embrace.

bastardization

i'm tired. really tired. i don't know why i feel so incredibly tired. however, i am going to be in portland for thanksgiving, which excites me. and i get a haircut too. YAY!
so basically have a great day. because the FCC hearing is tomorrow from 4 to 11 pm. and you should go there. i'll post location deatials soon. but you should know its in seattle somewhere.

just another morning

ok so its wednesday morning. somehow i still haven't taken out the trash, cleaned my part of hte room, or done laundry. the laundry can wait, i have more than a shitload of clothing, and of that i have about one week's worth left. the room isn't critical, but i need it to be clean. i really do. maybe not so organized its scary, but at least clean so i can walk through it an use my desk and chair. this is annoying. i miss kenji

please don't end

so i have three assignment due tomorrow.
and i havent' started any of them
absolutely none

well, i have started the one that is a group assignment
but the longest assignment is due at ten int he morning and i haven't started it yet.
shit shit shit

ok i'm done

start of something new?

so i've decided to begin blogging. i've never been successful in keeping a diary or a journal or a regular blog before, but i guess this is my time to try. i'm in seattle so i suppose this is not only the time for change, but for new adventures as well. this is probably one of the shortest blogs i will write, but you never know. sometimes an excess of emotion can mean a lack of words used.
adios amigos